I want my LIFE!

I wanna run so so so far away right now ... that no one can hear me crying.

After trying to talk to my grandpa about my upcoming wedding with "the different"

The person i love might be someone "different" for everyone around me , 

but he is the most familiar person to me!

I'm almost 24 y.o. 

I can understand my feelings , when it is attraction and when it is something more than just affection.

I am human , i feel alive when i am doing what makes me happy. 

Also not everything makes me happy is equal to other ppl , even if they r my parents ...

The same goes for me ...

Bcuz we all have our own likes and lifes

At this emotionally hard moment , i feel that only my mother supports me 

for which i have no idea how can i thank her !!!

I just LOVE her so much ! 

And i believe if my mother can feel that the decision of loving the "different" will make me happy , 

that this is true !

The father , grandfather , sister and brother...no one of these can want my happiness more than my mother!

Right?! 

I know i'm right!

How easy is to make a drama...

With my wish to make my life bound to the one i love i'm "breaking their heart"

living a life without my love , won't "break my heart"?

is this what they really think? really want from me ?

is this really the "happiness" they "want" for me?

F*ck this shit then ...

We live only one time !

I wanna do what i want , what i need 

I wanna regret for my own decisions even if they come out to be mistakes !!!

only then it will be 

MY LIFE!