Love in Hong Kong ~ 2010

continuing of  part 2 

2009 started hard , but was gonna end amazingly ~
and make my 2010 PERFECT

Joe came again to Bulgaria in October 2009

and when he was back , in November he gave me the biggest surprise

bought a plane ticket for me to HONG KONG!

and the date of the flight was only after 3 months after i met him for last time in 2009 

great , fantastic , cool , unbelievable , amazing ...

wah i cant describe my happiness !

of course there was an excitement that i'd see HK 

but the best excitement for me was that i'd see him after such a short time !
Sha la la !

3 months is nothing for me 

i was used to wait him for years  :D

i was excited for one more thing too~

this was gonna be my first time on a plane 

wohoho!

i was gonna ~fly~ ^^

and these 3 months passed really so fast ~

and i stepped in the airport , for the very first time O.O

thinking and scratching my nose at Varna airport waiting the flight to Sofia

From Varna to Sofia it was ok ~ just 45mins on the air ~

but Gosh! The Bulgaria air's plane was so old and so bad !

The sound it was making killed my ears !

I thought that i'd die before i reach HK if all the planes r the same!

But hopefully i was wrong

In Sofia i got on the Turkish airline's plane , so tidy , so clean , so fresh !

and the most important ~ no killing sound !

That's a plane ! not the previous one !

The plane was just flying like a bird ~ 

flying me to my baby boy ~

And after 8 hrs of uncomfortable sleeping on the plane's seat
the plane landed in Hong Kong!
I was in Hong Kong!!!
well , i dont wanna talk about how amazing the HK airport was ,
cuz i feel so sad about our Sofia airport
which smells like pee everywhere :D

So the first thing when I stepped outside on Hong Kong land , the air was... smelling strange to me
smell like chinese restaurant everywhere haha!
Probably ppl living there don't undertand it
but for a stranger like me it was so funny and noticeable [ smell able :D]

But overall I LOVED HONG KONG
how I could not
everywhere is full with Malls [ called Plaza in HK]
clothes , cosmetics , gadgets , high buildings 
and lovely roads , not like our moon crater looking roads in BG!!!
and so many careless fashioned ppl
all of them looking unique for me
[probably bcuz i dont see asians everyday in BG] :D

In 2010 [and in 2011] I had the chance to visit with my baby boy some of the places in HK from my must-see-list
Disneyland visit was the best one so far from 2010 ~
I felt like a little kid once again for one day ~ thx to my Joe

 Disneyland HONG KONG

"Come on in Disneyland " 

The beautiful Disney Castle <3 td="td">

I saw the Lion King show and the Lion King was singing wowo ^^

Even real elephants I'd see in Disneyland ~ No need to go to Zoo

He's still so taller than me ~

That was quite cute ~ Stroller park!

My glasses for the 4D Cinema !
amazing experience ~ all the Disney characters came alive in front of me ^^

everybody waiting for the show 

Space mountains photo capture ~ It's so sweet that Joe's looking at me in the dark ^^

I'm acting like I'm his lil girl ^^

And it's the end of one magical day ~ Goodbye Disney Land 

OH! I wanna go to Disneyland again!
do u like it like i do 
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Those who know about me , 

may guess that after my wedding in Bulgaria I'll move to Hong Kong with Joe 

so I must leave lost of stuff behind at my home in Bulgaria 

because I can't bring them all with me 

not that i dont want them 

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So some of them maybe can win two or more items

start 24. September.2012 - end 3rd. October.2012

~ Good Luck ~

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Hello again ~LOVE ~

Leby&Joe love story 

part 2 - year 2009 

[read part 1  ]

After meeting Joe for the real first time in 2008 he had to go back to Hong Kong

But this time waiting was gonna be only for one year and would definitely be much more difficult
 after I've met him and understood that he is my only one soul mate 

It was not difficult for me to wait

I knew how much he loved me and as it is said "i could wait him all my life"

But not everything depends on my patience

Over time i started to feel some changes with Joe

I knew he loved me, but for some reason he started to show it less to me

Like before he was so busy again 

But had no time for me 

With his behaviors he started to distance me from him

But of course i was still waiting for him and he was also telling me with each passed day he is closer to me again

He was gonna come but it was sth different about him now

A lot of times I tried to explain it to him, but he could not understand or did not want to understand

My parents [to be more clear my father] and my relatives was forcing me to give up this love

Psychically i wasn't feeling good

My father's pressure on me slowly exhausted me

One day I made the hard decision to tell Joe that everything is ...over 

but i could not control my tears while talking about that 

so he didnt believe me

He knew how much i was in love with him

I said that everything was a lie , nothing was real , this love can't come true

I tried my best to convince him

But i couldn't

And at the end I said that there is someone else in my life
Who is a better choice for me and my future 

That moment Joe was awakened

He understood he is gonna loose me for real

So he left everything behind , his job and school , and after some weeks he was back to me 

in Bulgaria again

I was so happy to have him again by my side after such a hard period 

He gave me the biggest happiness

I understood that I was really the most important thing in his life

it wasn't just in words

We hugged tightly each other crying crying for hours

and he've never cried in front of me before

because he thinks that a man should not cry

especially in front of his girl

he must show her how strong he is 

not how weak

He said how sorry he was and that he regrets neglecting me before 

Told me the reason for this was only to let time pass faster

And I told him about the pressure on me from my father and the other ppl

and we cried cried cried....

until the pain within us was gone away

really lived through the most difficult time of my life

Even writing them now makes me cry again

We decided not to remember and talk about these sad moments anymore

Nevertheless everything is happening for a reason

sometimes good, but sometimes painful things

Just like they say

"Let it go 

if it comes back to , it is yours

if not , then it isn't "

And when we just lost each other we were back again to each other

And this time, never to be separated

without letting anyone come between us

without giving a reason for that

Because LOVE always wins

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Leby&Joe aşk hikayesinin ikinci kısmı * 2009 * yılı

[başlangıcını http://lebyjoe.blogspot.com/2012/02/e-friend-to-be-real-love.html dan okuyabılırsınız]

İlk olarak 2008'de görüştükten sonra Joe Hong Kong'a geri döndü

Ama bu kez bekleyiş sadece 1 sene olucaktı ve cok daha zor 

Artık onu canlı canlı gördükten ve benim tek öteki yarım olduğunu anladıktan sonra 

Beklemek benim için zor değildi 

beni nekadar çok sevdiğini bildiğim için onu, derler ya, bir ömür beklemeye razıydım

Ama herşey bende bitmiyor

Zamanla Joe'da bazı değişiklikler hissetmeye başladım

Beni sevdiğini biliyordum ama nedense bunu daha az göstermeye başladı zamanla

Eskidende olduğu gibi yine çok yoğundu, meşkuldü 

Ama bana zaman ayıramamaya başladı

O bu davranışlarıyla beni yavaş yavaş kendinden uzaklaştırdı 

Ama yinede tabi ki bekliyordum ve oda herzaman bana her gecen gün gelmesine daha az kaldığını söylüyordu

Yine gelecekti ama değişmişti

Bunu ona bir çok kez anlatmaya çalıştım ama o anlayamadı yada anlamak istemedi

Bunun üzerine ailem [daha net olmak gerekirse babam]  ve diğer akrabalarım beni bu aşktan vaz geçmem için zorluyorlardı 

Piskolojim iyice bozulmuştu 

Ve babamın üzerimde gösterdiği baskı beni yavaş yavaş yıprattı

Bir gün ağlaya ağlaya, hıçkıra hıçkıra Joe'ya herşeyin bitmesi gerektiğini soyledim

Tabiki o buna inanmadı 

Ona nasıl aşık oldugumu biliyordu

Herşeyin yalan olduğunu, onu hiç sevmediğimi ve aynen filmelerdeki gibi bir suru yalanlar söyledim 

onu inandırmaya çalıştım 

ama başaramadım 

Ve en sonunda hayatımda başka birinin olduğunu söyledim
Benim ve gelecegim icin daha hayirli olacagini 

Işte o an Joe uyanmıştı 

beni gerçekten kaybede bileceğini anladı 

Hemen işini ve herşeyi bi geride brakıp hemen bir kaç hafta sonra Bulgaristana geldi 

Okadar mutluydum ki ona acılı bir süreçten sonra yine kavuştuğumda

Dunyalar benim olmuştu

Bana gerçekten herşeyden çok değer verdiğini anladım

Geldiğinde birlikte birbirimize sıkı sıkı sarılıp saatlerce ağladık 

ki o benim önümde daha önce hiç ağlamamıştı 

cünki ona göre aynı türk ekekleri gibi erkekler ağlamaz 

helede sevdiğinin önünde 

sevdiğine nekadar güçlü biri olduğunu göstermesi gerek

nekadar zayıf değil

Bana ne kadar üzgün ve pişman olduğunu soyledi bana ilgisiz davdandığı için 

Bunun sebebi sadece zamanın daha hızlı gecmesi için olduğunu anlattı 

Ve bende babamın ve diğerlerinin uzerimdeki baskısını anlattım 

ve ağladık ağladık 

içimizdeki o birikmiş acıyı dökene kadar

hayatımın gercekten en zor zamanlarını yaşamıştım

ve şu an bunları yazarken dahi  yine ağlıyorum

Ve bunları bir daha konuşup hatırlamamaya karar verdik

Yinede herşey yaşanması gerektiği için yaşanır 

bazen iyi şeyler ama bazende acı veren

Aynen söyledikleri gibi

Brak gitsin 

Seninse sana geri döner 

Dönmezse zaten senin değildir

Ve ben ondan, o benden tam gittiği zaman yeniden birbirimize kavuştuk 

Ve bu kez asla ayrılmamak üzere

hiç kimsenin aramıza girmesine izin vermeden 

buna sebeb vermeden 

Çünki AŞK herzaman kazanır 

Türkçe ! / Turkish !

I'm a Turkish girl
But because I'm living in Bulgaria my turkish is not too good
So for this reason I've decided to start writing in my blog in Turkish too ~
In this way I will improve myself
And also my friends who don't know English can understand my posts
I'm sure most of the time I will be writing wrong or hard to understand sentences
but this is just the beginning
With the practice it will be proved

  
~ LOVE for ALL ~
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Ben bir türk kızıyım
fakat Bulgaristanda yaşadığım için türkcem ne yazıkki çok iyi sayılamaz
O yüzden blogumda artik türkcede yazmaya karar verdim
Böylelikle hem kendime bir faydam olucak
hemde ingilizce bilmeyen arkadaşlarımda yazılarımı rahatlıkla okuyabilecek
Eminim çoğu zaman yazdıklarım yalnış veya anlaşılmaz olacak
ama bu sadece bir başlangıç
Zamanla daha iyi olacağına inanıyorum
=}

~ LOVE for ALL ~

I want my LIFE!

I wanna run so so so far away right now ... that no one can hear me crying.

After trying to talk to my grandpa about my upcoming wedding with "the different"

The person i love might be someone "different" for everyone around me , 

but he is the most familiar person to me!

I'm almost 24 y.o. 

I can understand my feelings , when it is attraction and when it is something more than just affection.

I am human , i feel alive when i am doing what makes me happy. 

Also not everything makes me happy is equal to other ppl , even if they r my parents ...

The same goes for me ...

Bcuz we all have our own likes and lifes

At this emotionally hard moment , i feel that only my mother supports me 

for which i have no idea how can i thank her !!!

I just LOVE her so much ! 

And i believe if my mother can feel that the decision of loving the "different" will make me happy , 

that this is true !

The father , grandfather , sister and brother...no one of these can want my happiness more than my mother!

Right?! 

I know i'm right!

How easy is to make a drama...

With my wish to make my life bound to the one i love i'm "breaking their heart"

living a life without my love , won't "break my heart"?

is this what they really think? really want from me ?

is this really the "happiness" they "want" for me?

F*ck this shit then ...

We live only one time !

I wanna do what i want , what i need 

I wanna regret for my own decisions even if they come out to be mistakes !!!

only then it will be 

MY LIFE!